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Then you'll also be surprised to learn that I am insulted constantly and laughed at. Don't get me wrong, there are lots of great people, but it is naive to think the Netherlands is a tolerant place. When you go through the medical system you face the same attitudes.

The issue is, if you believe in the system, you'll give it a chance to traumatize you. This is added on top of other traumas such as losing your family, becoming homeless and so on. The trans thing itself isn't actually the biggest part of it, it's the culture and the society.

Sure, you could get lucky and have the right gp and meet the right psychiatrist, and then you have to wait 5 years before you get any medical support. I've tried. I mean I've literally been at a gp that I knew was trans friendly and I told her I was at risk of suicide, and she was OK with that.

And about the medicine, well you can compound it yourself. I honestly can't live without it, because it is night and day for my mental wellbeing. Without it, it is extremely difficult to live. It's like you're in a state of dissociation and it's painful. It's quite a complex thing to describe, but you are effectively disabled and are at risk of suicide.

Nipples are on breasts

I've been with unity since the early days and back then it was this simple little engine.

Today it's a nightmare. I just made an hdr project and imported their own terrain example assets and guess what? It's broken in multiple ways. Now I have to waste time fixing it, instead of focusing on my project. And that's as a unity expert rather than a beginner.

That's not to mention all the errors it loves to throw at me, even though it's all quite vanilla. And how it loves to grab my attention with popup windows that block my view. How builds fail when I focus on another window. I could go on.

They keep adding features without finishing them. Clearly some kind of impulsive marketing behavior, rather than listening to the experts.

The cherry on top is that licensing nonsense they pulled, putting my hard earned livelihood in danger. That stuff really makes you scratch your head and look around.

Seriously, try out Godot.

Edit: I actually just realized I haven't even started yet with truly getting stuff off my chest here.

Hmm, considering your religious upbringing you might want to try some absurdist literature to break the mold.

• The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy
• The Cyberiad
• Discworld
• The Little Prince

These are accessible too, as you're not used to reading yet.

I can also recommend subscribing to a monthly magazine and making a point to read it from cover to cover. That way your skills will improve. You can also buy a whole stack of old national geographics cheaply. This will expand your horizons.

I'm sorry to hear that. I'm just grabbing this out of thin air, but have you ever considered medical tourism?

That scares me greatly but I can't just stop taking my medicine, so what can I do but accept the risk?

I'm trans. Giving up on the system has been good for me. It was like a one sided relationship. Now when I need something I just solve it on my own and it works.

I've read the SVN book from cover to cover and understand what can go wrong during a merge and how to solve it. But I never tell anyone, because I hate it more than anything.

NL

Ehhh, take this upvote

I'm in Europe and can't get my meds either

I for one despise butts. Especially spherical ones 🤫