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At around 13, with no experience outside knowing how to ride a bike, attempted a 6 foot BMX bike jump, the kind with a near-verticle lip. After two bailed attempts, I committed to MORE SPEED on the third try. I went straight up, couldn't position the bike forward, and fell directly backward onto my unhelmeted head and back onto packed dirt and gravel. Always kind of felt dumber, slower after that day

THERE were two “Reigns of Terror,” if we would but remember it and consider it; the one wrought murder in hot passion, the other in heartless cold blood; the one lasted mere months, the other had lasted a thousand years; the one inflicted death upon ten thousand persons, the other upon a hundred millions; but our shudders are all for the “horrors” of the minor Terror, the momentary Terror, so to speak; whereas, what is the horror of swift death by the axe, compared with lifelong death from hunger, cold, insult, cruelty, and heart-break? What is swift death by lightning compared with death by slow fire at the stake? A city cemetery could contain the coffins filled by that brief Terror which we have all been so diligently taught to shiver at and mourn over; but all France could hardly contain the coffins filled by that older and real Terror—that unspeakably bitter and awful Terror which none of us has been taught to see in its vastness or pity as it deserves

There was a really good video clip of a protestor in 2020, paraphrased: "we came out to protest, then the cops started hitting our heads with batons. we started wearing helmets, so they gassed us. We started bringing masks, so they attack us. Now we bring shields and they call them weapons. Someone is escalating this, but it's not us".

Basically, any evidence that you plan to defend yourself gives the cops, in their mind, cause to attack. Since you planned to defend yourself. Except fire. Cops are scared as fuck of fire.

My favorite bit of bear lore is the etymology of the word "bear"

Did I miss raktajino?

Edit: I did not, raktajino snubbed

we were inspired by the corporate motto, "Don't be evil"

No you've got this all screwed up. It's supposed to say..."Don't, be evil"

The girl reading this

Just put it in the replicator

drinking raktajino on the swing shift

If you mean top right, it seems like that's the #1 pussy getter

Being aware of it is the first step. It's the same rush you get from cursing when in pain, or punching a pillow/wall when you're upset. The flood of anger, especially righteous anger, can be it's own reinforcement. Stop giving yourself that stimulation. You'll feel agitated and restless, but you need to break the habit. Substitute a different habit. Check out cute animal videos from The Dodo, or enjoy some Primitive Technology, or watch some Veg Village recipe videos.

Reminds me of the story of the Alexander Matrosov memorial. A Ukrainian Soviet soldier who blocked the opening of a Nazi machine gun nest by shoving his body into it, absorbing gunfire and shielding his comrades, enabling them to advance on the position. The fascist government of Ukraine dismantled the memorial in his hometown of Dnipro, and is attempting to rewrite history but claiming he had never been to Ukraine and was a Turkic Bashkir using a false name.