ADHD IS NOT JUST AN INABILITY TO FOCUS. Look up the diagnosis metrics. There are going to be a list of “symptoms” and you have to look at your entire life and analyze if those things have happened to you.
ADHD made me suicidal, and horrifically depressed; as I was unable to focus or stick to anything, which was causing me to fail at every aspect of my life. It was like going through life in a deep fog, with a mind that actively resisted any and all attempts to change. Imagine not having mental control over your own body.
If you’ve every played Silent Hill, I was living my life how it feels to walk through the fog filled town.
I had been on every single anti depressant known to man, stumping my psychiatrist because none of them worked. My hell only ended when I told my Psychiatrist that I was most likely going to be dead within a few months, causing him in desperation (and probably not entirely legally) to prescribe me stimulants without an official diagnosis under the cover that it was off label for my depression.
My life painfully changed over the course of the next 8 months. It was like waking up from a deep coma in which you are aware of everything going on around you, but you are unable to affect it in any way. I essentially metamorphized.
I have since then received an official diagnosis, and my life has been incredible since. It took months of work, and personal growth, but I managed to change.
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